Tryst with UPSC!
After completing my engineering from a private college, I was lucky enough to get a job. It was during my one year job period I started reading books as I don't have any friends at my workplace. I have read books like Siddhartha (Harman Hesse), Bhagwat Gita, the Alchemist (Paulo Coelho), The Secret(Rhonda Byrne) during that phase, which worked in changing my attitude towards life to a great extent. Also developed habit of reading newspaper at that time, and moved from Facebook to Quora.
As I used to get enough time to spend with myself, I also started to contemplate on various issues I read in books or newspaper. Along with this my dissatisfaction with my job was also growing. At that point i wasn’t able to find any reason other than financial to hold onto my job.Along with my quest for knowledge, a desire was growing inside me to lead a life more true to myself. So I started looking for my sweet spot.
All this added up and the resistance I had to face from my extended family members also acted as a catalyst to become a civil servant.
Being average in academic, it was a tough call for me to go for civil services which is considered as one of the toughest exams to crack. I trusted my gut feeling and have written my first mains this year.
After spending two years as an aspirant I can say that it had been a life changing experience. The result is still uncertain and so is future. Motivation may not be a permanent state and any superficial reason can not push you for that extra hard work. There comes many moments of frustration when people try to mock you on your failure. But, in the end nothing succeeds like success.
The process in itself is a learning experience. Although, even after all the hard work your success is not guaranteed still if you have prepared sincerely for this exam it will make you a responsible citizen and definitely a better and more responsive person.
So, it was my desire to learn as well as my desire to give back to society which forced me to take the risk.
Someone once told me the definition of Hell: The last day you have on earth, the person you became will meet the person you could have become.” — Anonymous
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